Grown Up Babies

This morning is just impossible for me. I can't even believe what an emotional mess I am today. Last night I guess I was just too tired to react, but this morning it seems like it all just hit me.

My baby granddaughter (who is 20) is getting married. She brought me pictures of her trying on wedding dresses, sometimes in full gown and veil. The very idea that she could be this grown up and ready to get married, is just more than my heart can hold today. I've been crying ever since I got up. It just keeps coming over me, memories of us when she was a baby. Memories of her when she lived with me for a little bit. Memories of her as such a wonderful cute little girl.

The same kind of thing hit me Saturday when I was getting my hair cut by my other granddaughter. After she finished with me, I had to wait on my ride and I looked over at her working on someone else. All grown up, working for a living and absolutely beautiful. Surely just the other day she was a baby laughing in my arms.

And with the realization that the wedding date of the the first granddaughter has been moved up because my grandSON is going in the Navy just hit me full force. He is leaving in April and I'll have to go through all that too. Its a lot for an old lady.

The youngest of the older 4 is all grown up too and she's going to be in the wedding as a bridesmaid. Actually all of them are going to be in the wedding and I'm trying to imagine how I'll ever be able to keep myself from losing it that day when i see my grown up babies all in a row, all decked out, on the brink of their lives.